Breakfast: 2 bananas
Today is day 7 and my commitment is renewed. I can’t wait for noon so I can go get a salad of romain, olives, purple onion, raw sunflower seed, mushrooms, and some fruit on the side for an afternoon snack. I decided last night that I really need to be more serious. I had too many “Oh, just this once.” momments this weekend. Social situations can be a real challenge, but I already know that from being a raw vegan a few years back. You just have to eat before you socialize or make sure that the host or hostess is aware of your food preferences. Most people don’t mind having a salad or some fresh fruit available. That’s what friends are for.
I’ve never really sacrificed for my health, for my happiness. A great part of why I’m doing this is weightloss. As a woman, I feel better when I’m not carrying an extra 50 pounds of weight. I feel better physically, but I also feel better on an emotional/mental level. It’s hard being overweight, let alone overweight and single, in a world that is so visually focused. I know people would say…love yourself, you’re ok. Well, I know that. But if I continue to eat the Standard American Diet…I don’t see me being much happier with my body or my love life. That’s just reality for me. Exercise is key, but what you put into your mouth is just as important, if not more. You have to be a whole, well rounded person and do things in perspective. I can’t focus on the health side and ignore the fact that feeling more beautiful, and wearing what I want to wear is part of my motivation. I need all the motivation I can get right now. lol This journey is about a lot of things. I need to be free. I need to be free of the reasons why I don’t want to post my before pic yet. I feel like I look so fat and ugly in that photo. I don’t like it. I don’t want to be that person anymore. I’m not happy with that person. That’s real. That’s what I really think. But…I’m working toward change and acceptance.
